10 Years on Youtube

The exact date of my first upload is a little hazy but I do know for sure between July and December of 2013 I uploaded my first videos to the Blake Jael YouTube channel. I had a couple other channels I did with friends unofficially before that but let’s go with 2013.

Im try to let that sink in

Alot comes to mind when I wrap my head around the fact I’ve been practicing, crafting, building, creating something for 10 years.

One Decade

The first thing that comes to mind is how I’ve been extremely uninspired with my video for the last 3 of those years.

Another is that I was just having a conversation with my mom about how some of the very first videos I ever made were the ones that I love the most to this day. And how I wanted to regain that ‘2013 mindset’. I hadn’t even made the connection that I had finally made it to the 10 year mark.

Another thought is how I’ve accomplished everything I wanted without reaching 100k subscribers. That was always an aspiration and for a while I was embarassed that the years were racking up and I had yet to reach the milestone. I recently got to a point where I knew if I never made another video again Id be content with all that did and didn’t do including not reaching 100k. Because was that ever really MY goal. I asked myself and I answered no. That young girl creating cookbooks in her room didn’t want recognition. She uploaded videos before even knowing all that the platform could and would do for people. She had no idea money was to be made. Money and recognition was never a driving force. She just wanted an outlet. She did it for her pure enjoyment. I want to be her again.

I have alot of thinking to do. What do I want the next 10years of my life to include. What does God want the next 10 years of my life to include is the real question. What brings me joy like 2013 me had? What do I look forward to? Do I want to continue to share my life on the internet? Consume the internet? What interest outside of the Internet do I have? What’s next?